Learning lessons
It's been a while since I have felt this isolated and out of place. It seems that everyone, including me, has grown quiet the last few weeks. I feel on my own more then I'm used to. I have dear amazing friends who are always there for me, but I'm sick of complaining about the same thing over and over again so I've shut up a lot. This makes me feel like no one knows and no one understands. I think the fact that I'm wearing dark sunglasses all the time makes the isolation a bit more real. No one can see my eyes so I feel like no one is really looking at me or seeing me. I know it's all so silly.
I didn't get to sleep last night so I had lots of time just to worship and pray. I love so much that God is big enough to except my frustrations without getting overwhelmed or frustrated back. I feel like God is trying to teach me some hard things through all this and I know with all my heart that it will be worth it. My eyes hurt so much so I am praying that God will teach me to better use my spiritual eyes. To see things, and especially people, through HIS eyes. I seem to be getting more and more fragile which takes away my feeling of independence. So I'm learning to trust God with the little things. If I can trust Him with my forever then I need to be able to trust Him with my dislocated ribs.
Not gonna lie. These are not fun lessons to learn, but I am thankful that God cares enough about me to not just let me walk through life, but helps me to keep growing and changing. I want to be a better person today then I was yesterday. I don't want to take things for granted. I want to learn from everything. I want to live my life with a thankful heart. I have not been good at that this week.
Lord, thank You for always keeping me in Your hands. Thank you for loving me enough to let me learn the hard lessons. I know that You cry when I cry and understand every kind of emotional or physical pain I may every go through. Thank You that You made a way for your children to be able to talk and hear You no matter what we are doing. Even in my sleep, I hear Your voice and sense your presents. You are good and faithful even when my fears take over my heart. May my life bring glory to Your name.
I didn't get to sleep last night so I had lots of time just to worship and pray. I love so much that God is big enough to except my frustrations without getting overwhelmed or frustrated back. I feel like God is trying to teach me some hard things through all this and I know with all my heart that it will be worth it. My eyes hurt so much so I am praying that God will teach me to better use my spiritual eyes. To see things, and especially people, through HIS eyes. I seem to be getting more and more fragile which takes away my feeling of independence. So I'm learning to trust God with the little things. If I can trust Him with my forever then I need to be able to trust Him with my dislocated ribs.
Not gonna lie. These are not fun lessons to learn, but I am thankful that God cares enough about me to not just let me walk through life, but helps me to keep growing and changing. I want to be a better person today then I was yesterday. I don't want to take things for granted. I want to learn from everything. I want to live my life with a thankful heart. I have not been good at that this week.
Lord, thank You for always keeping me in Your hands. Thank you for loving me enough to let me learn the hard lessons. I know that You cry when I cry and understand every kind of emotional or physical pain I may every go through. Thank You that You made a way for your children to be able to talk and hear You no matter what we are doing. Even in my sleep, I hear Your voice and sense your presents. You are good and faithful even when my fears take over my heart. May my life bring glory to Your name.
