Update 1-24-13
Hey my people,
A lot of you have asked for updates from me and you haven’t gotten one. SORRY! The reason you haven’t heard from me is that my brain is broken. I’ve had a lot of trouble thinking through stuff this last week. It’s hard for me to finish thoughts and getting my brain on paper or even in text form has not been my best skill.
BUT, I love how much you guys care and want to know how I am so I’m gonna work on this and see what I can get out even if it takes me a long time. (I started this note in March, 2011. Ha! Just kidding)
Ok So I was in the hospital for 5 days, 2 weeks ago for a seizure study. LONG, COOL SOTRY! (Hopefully I’ll get to it soon) The short answer to how that went is that it was crazy hard, but God did some cool things while I was there. We are still working on getting into seeing my Doctor to get full results but I was told before I was released that I am not epileptic but I do have epileptic seizures. (Yeah, I have no idea how that works) They took me off of my seizure med and started me on a new one. I have only twitched once since then (amazing!) but I am having a lot of mental problems on the new med. For about 2 hours after I take it (twice a day) I pretty much have to stay away from people because I feel like everyone is going to slap me. I also almost have a mental break down if someone asks me a question in this time. It’s strange. But it doesn’t last and I am learning to time it right so I am alone when I take it in the morning and sleeping soon after I take it at night. Works pretty well.
As far as my stutter goes, that depends on the day. Somedays I am pretty good. I have a stutter but it’s not too distracting or frustrating and I can communicate well. Most days though it’s pretty bad and talking takes so much energy and gives me a bad headache. On bad days my intonation is missing and I feel like my vocabulary is stunted when I try and think. It’s hard to communicate and I try and talk as little as possible so my head doesn’t fall off. I am working on finding a speech therapist (not happy) & I am learning more and more signs every day so I can sign instead of talk when my head hurts. This is not as helpful as one would think at first since no one else understands signs, but that’s ok. My family and I know each other well enough that we can make up our own signs and communicate pretty well. You all would be very amused at some of the signs my father comes up with. Haha!
I’ve been having a lot of trouble being cold all the time. My room has the sun and its own heater and I can get it about 82 in here and I’ll still sit here and shiver. I hate this. It’s so annoying and I have trouble getting stuff done when I’m so cold.
BUT I am happy! Really happy. I am coming out of a very dark season and I am learning to be thankful for so much and to live in the moment God has given me and stop freaking out about the past or the future. It is nice to be getting some of my joy back at long last!
I love you all so much! I’m so sorry it’s hard for me to keep up with you all right now, but know that I love you and pray for you all so much!
Whit
A lot of you have asked for updates from me and you haven’t gotten one. SORRY! The reason you haven’t heard from me is that my brain is broken. I’ve had a lot of trouble thinking through stuff this last week. It’s hard for me to finish thoughts and getting my brain on paper or even in text form has not been my best skill.
BUT, I love how much you guys care and want to know how I am so I’m gonna work on this and see what I can get out even if it takes me a long time. (I started this note in March, 2011. Ha! Just kidding)
Ok So I was in the hospital for 5 days, 2 weeks ago for a seizure study. LONG, COOL SOTRY! (Hopefully I’ll get to it soon) The short answer to how that went is that it was crazy hard, but God did some cool things while I was there. We are still working on getting into seeing my Doctor to get full results but I was told before I was released that I am not epileptic but I do have epileptic seizures. (Yeah, I have no idea how that works) They took me off of my seizure med and started me on a new one. I have only twitched once since then (amazing!) but I am having a lot of mental problems on the new med. For about 2 hours after I take it (twice a day) I pretty much have to stay away from people because I feel like everyone is going to slap me. I also almost have a mental break down if someone asks me a question in this time. It’s strange. But it doesn’t last and I am learning to time it right so I am alone when I take it in the morning and sleeping soon after I take it at night. Works pretty well.
As far as my stutter goes, that depends on the day. Somedays I am pretty good. I have a stutter but it’s not too distracting or frustrating and I can communicate well. Most days though it’s pretty bad and talking takes so much energy and gives me a bad headache. On bad days my intonation is missing and I feel like my vocabulary is stunted when I try and think. It’s hard to communicate and I try and talk as little as possible so my head doesn’t fall off. I am working on finding a speech therapist (not happy) & I am learning more and more signs every day so I can sign instead of talk when my head hurts. This is not as helpful as one would think at first since no one else understands signs, but that’s ok. My family and I know each other well enough that we can make up our own signs and communicate pretty well. You all would be very amused at some of the signs my father comes up with. Haha!
I’ve been having a lot of trouble being cold all the time. My room has the sun and its own heater and I can get it about 82 in here and I’ll still sit here and shiver. I hate this. It’s so annoying and I have trouble getting stuff done when I’m so cold.
BUT I am happy! Really happy. I am coming out of a very dark season and I am learning to be thankful for so much and to live in the moment God has given me and stop freaking out about the past or the future. It is nice to be getting some of my joy back at long last!
I love you all so much! I’m so sorry it’s hard for me to keep up with you all right now, but know that I love you and pray for you all so much!
Whit
