Friday, August 19, 2011

Trying to Shut Down My Brain

Trying to shut down my brain

August 19, 2011 at 1:19am
What does your last outgoing text say?  “Yeah, I do too. There is this mysterious peace about it”
What did you do today overall?   Spent the day in Toledo at the hospital and running errands
Did you kiss someone more than 20 times in 2011?  Umm on the check, yep
How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?  A lot.  I tend to trust men much faster the girls.
Have you ever talked to someone when they were high? Yep.
How often do you hold back what you want to say? About every day.
Your ex is on the side of the road, on fire. what do you do? Put him out!
It's 2 in the morning and you get a text message, who is it most likely? Seth or Alex or Adam or Bri
Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone? I try crazy hard not to, but yes.
Who did you last ride in a car with besides family? Jeremy in his awesome new car that I may or may not name “the force”
How well do you know the last male you texted? Pretty well considering how long we have known each other, but not that well really.
Are any of your friends so close that you consider them family? Yep
Are you good at giving directions?  Oh my no!
What does your mom call you? Who knows. A new word comes out of her almost every time she talks to me.
Are you wearing any make up right now? Not a stitch.
Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you? A lot of them.
Have you ever been nice to someone who treated you like crap?  Lots of times, but I’m working on it.
Are you nice to everyone? No, but I wish I was.
Is it hard for you to be happy for someone else? No, it’s much easier then to be happy for myself.
How long have you lived in your current home? 3 years
First person to speak to you in 2011? Courtney I’m sure.
Are you afraid of getting your heart broken? Always
Do you like mac n cheese? Deeply!
Relationship between you and the last person you texted? We are dear friends.
Can you remember who texted you last without checking? Yes
Someone knocks on your window at 2am, what do you say? I think I would scream before anything else.
If there was a large spider in the room, would you stay? After I killed it, sure.
Are you taller than 5'5? Yes, but I’m not trilled about that.
Do you put ketchup on top of your french fries or on the side? On the side. I love this question BTW
Who was the first person you talked to today? My father who woke me up
Do you think relationships are hard? One of the hardest things ever, but worth it.
What do you currently hear right now? Star trek and my dog snoring.
Would you ever dye your hair blonde? Soon I think.
Would you ever run away and get married with no notifications to your family? I hope not, but it could happen.
If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? Yup.
What was the last thing you cried about? Insecurity.
If you got kicked out of your house, where would you go?  The Ayers
Is it easy to pretend everything's okay for you? Yes
Do you think it makes him weak when a guy cries? Very much no.
Do you think age matters in relationship? Well yeah, but the older I get the less of a deal it is.
If you could make your lips bigger, would you?? Umm no.
Who took your profile picture? Probably me. I don’t remember what one is up right now.
When is your next vacation and where? A long time from now I’m guessing, but I really want to go to Northern MI to visit my family, New York to visit my other family, California to go to my dear friend’s wedding,  Georgia to meet my little fish, and Cincinnati to pretend to meet someone I will never get to meet.
Do you think you would make a good parent? I hope so.
What is your favorite kind of ice cream? I hate this question because it changes all the time.
Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap? Often
Two months ago, can you remember who you liked? Yep
Do you think people ever change? Yeah I do.  God is cool like that.
How are you feeling right now? Like I should be emailing people instead of doing this nonsensical silliness

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Post Surgery

Post surgery

August 2, 2011 at 9:07am
Ahhhh I have so much to say! I have a whole, amazing and hard week of camp to catch you all up on, but I’m afraid my brain is sort of focused on the fresh scar on my chest.

Yesterday I went in for my 7th surgery.  I think by now I can confidently say I’m old hat at this, but that doesn’t really make it any less painful.   I was really praying that God would allow me to be a bright spot in my medical staff’s day and I really feel like He was faithful in that.  I was awake for the procedure this time and I got to joke and laugh with everyone.   I had a surgeon in training in my room who was less than thrilled about the idea of sticking up the inside of my body.  I had fun talking him into taking the knife in his hand.  It seems fine at the time, but it’s funny looking back on it. I think a good general rule of thumb is that you should never talk ANYONE into cutting you up. If they don’t want to do it, don’t let them do it. J  Ha! But I’m glad I talked him into it.  Obviously I can’t see the inside of my body, but it felt like he did a good job.  I was happy to be able to encourage him. It was fun.  

This surgery was quite the experience because I wasn’t in a ton of pain during the procedure but I felt every cut and stitch.  The doc liked me so he explained things as he went and laughed at all my strange questions.  They took the port out (Which they had trouble with) and then stitched up three places inside my body to close the vain and flesh and then (And this part doesn’t make much sense to me at all) they closed up the wound in three layers.  This part took forever and was rather painful as my meds were wearing off by this time.  But they pumped me back up and I was feeling rather great by the time I got to the recovery room.  I was blessed to have both my parents and an unexpected guest there to greet me.   My friend Alex (For those of you who are wondering, I mean Church Alex) gets 10 million points for stopping in to see me.  He was a nice distraction from the pain and turns out he is a pretty good wheelchair… ummm I mean “pod racer” driver. J

On the way home I was starving which hasn’t happened in about a month so I ate a big salad (Left handed because I’m just cool like that) and then when I got home I ate some more.  This happens every time I have surgery that I’m starving later that day.  It was nice to enjoy food for a bit but I’m really paying for it today. Fighting to not throw up since that could rip stitches and I’m thinking hurt like a cuss word.

Today I’m in a ton of pain and really weary but I’m so far doing better than I had expected.  As long as I sleep a lot and stay distracted when I’m awake (Hence this note) then I should be ok I think.

I have to be really careful for about a week with my right side and arm.  Tomorrow night I get to take the bandage off and clean the wound a bit. Both looking forward to and dreading that.

Thank you all so much for your prayers and notes of encouragement. I’m really behind on writing you all back, so please be gracious with me over the next few weeks as I try and catch up.
I honestly mean it when I say that I love you all.  You were made in God’s image and that is really evident in how much you have blessed by life.
Be in peace!
Whit