I, Love to love you, Baby!
This afternoon has been one of those afternoons where I’m really fighting the “Whaaaaaa….. I hate being sick and no one understands me” mindset. I was busy this morning which means I’m in a lot of pain this afternoon. I’m used to this reality but it still bothers me sometimes. I was doing my best to read a little (which sometimes works and sometimes doesn't) and the words were just jumping off of the page at me. My book is a collection of sermons from all sorts of wonderful people. The one I was on today happen to be by Joni Eareckson Tada. (appropriate for my mood) She was talking about how we always have all these questions about why God let’s bad things happen to good people and why a gracious God lets the world suffer so. Her answer was that there are no answers, but there is love. God is the answer. The reasons WHY things happen don’t matter, but the love God has for us through everything is what really matters in life. Now, go ahead and judge me if you want but I was listening to Beyoncé’ while I was reading and this song came on that, I’m not sure was originally meat for this,but my God is funny and tends to use music to speak to me. There is this line in the song that repeats “I love to love you, Baby”. Like I said, I’m not sure that is what Beyoncé meant but I heard God’s voice through it to my heart. I've been pretty fussy the last… oh… 9 months and the more upset about life I get, the farther away from God’s love I feel. Today I got to read about God’s grace through trials and hear God’s voice through Beyoncé singing “I, Love to love you, Baby”. Do you hear that? The God who made the universe not only loves me but He loves to love me. And I happen to know that loving me can be hard sometimes when I’m freaking out or doubting everything, but God loves to love me. How cool is that?
The last 9 months of my life have been hard, they are still hard, but I am loved by a great and powerful God. I need nothing else to rest my hope on than Him. I know my healing will come. I know my love will come. I know that the things that God has promised me will happen in this life or the next, but in the meantime I am learning more and more to rest in the fact that God loves to love me just where I am right now, today, upset or not.
The last 9 months of my life have been hard, they are still hard, but I am loved by a great and powerful God. I need nothing else to rest my hope on than Him. I know my healing will come. I know my love will come. I know that the things that God has promised me will happen in this life or the next, but in the meantime I am learning more and more to rest in the fact that God loves to love me just where I am right now, today, upset or not.
